People ask me ‘what’s new?” and I can see the disappointment (concern? pity?) on their faces when I have nothing truly substantial to offer them. There’s nothing I can actually and physically show them that will satisfy their attempt to assess whether my life is going well, or well…poorly.
But what could I show anyone that helps them understand how much I change and grow everyday, and how for the first time in a long while I feel like I have just as many good days as bad days? What could I say, who could I date, what could I buy that would convince you that for the first time over a decade I’m experiencing and enjoying the banality of a somewhat normal life?
I have no pictures to show you. No exciting stories to tell. But I laugh everyday, I cry whenever I damn well please, and I’ve grown grateful for this period of blank journal pages because change is inevitable…and I guess I’m just trying to enjoy the silence while it lasts.
Thank you for this.